On a beach in Hamilton Island, I try to write my way out of it.
But I don’t know any suitable words,
Only woefully inadequate ones that mean nothing: sunscreen, seagull, oyster.
Grief’s vocabulary fails me.
I try to write my way out of it.
But the thoughts come out fragmented, disjointed,
Blowing around and reshuffling themselves in the ocean breeze.
The sentences refuse to assemble.
I try to write my way out of it.
But the unrelenting sunlight blinds me,
Leaving behind only opaque black dots in my vision.
They refuse to be blinked away.
I try to write my way out of it.
But the silky, burning sand caves in around me,
Lodging in my hair while slipping quickly through my fingers.
The scorching powder eludes a foothold.
I try to write my way out of it.
But sudden raindrops plop down on my paper,
Bleeding blue ink into circles, and trickling tiny pearls of water southward.
They slow dance down the page with my tears.
I try to write my way out of it.
But a crashing wave from a passing Jet Ski knocks me over,
Stealing my breath and acquainting me with the jagged rocks below.
Their edges scrape my palms and slash my notebook.
I try to write my way out of it.
But the undertow is too strong,
Dragging me out to sea by the ankles; the now brackish water has a firm grip.
My pen is replaced by seaweed, slimy strands that wrap around my fingers.
I try to write my way out of it.
But they tell me there is no out;
There’s only through.
And through is unthinkable.
Hamilton Island
Confessions of an Imperfect Life 
I can feel your pain and hope time, love,friends, family, and good memories will help you to live your life to the fullest again.
Hamilton Island is a place I’ve visited a couple of times and is filled with wonderful, family memories for me. Reading this fills me with a bitter-sweet feeling due to the joy the island brought to me, but also the sadness I know you are feeling right now…words escape me, and all I can do is imagine how difficult it would be for me. I find myself thinking of you and your family, and wishing I could provide something to help make it better. Please know you are on my mind, Katie, and I’m sending good wishes and hugs your way! ❤
Hamilton Island is a place I’ve visited a couple of times and is filled with wonderful, family memories for me. Reading this fills me with a bitter-sweet feeling due to the joy the island brought to me, but also the sadness I know you are feeling right now…words escape me, and all I can do is imagine how difficult it would be for me. I find myself thinking of you and your family, and wishing I could provide something to help make it better. Please know you are on my mind and I’m sending good wishes and hugs your way! ❤
So beautifully written Katie sending you much love.
Love the way you write.
Lovely !